you my beautiful weren't fazed

x3collide @ 2005-12-26T16:53:00

2005-12-26T21:54:06Z

NEW LJ

add-- only_injuly

COMMENT TO BE ADDED.

x3collide @ 2005-11-21T20:37:00

2005-12-02T01:38:25Z

my lj is fucked up.

ugh.

I AM GETTING BRACES.

laugh now if you wish.

x3collide @ 2005-11-20T23:12:00

2005-12-01T04:23:38Z

soooo today = good.

i'd have to say it was the most exitement i've had in awhile. which is sad.. because it really wasn't that exiting.

basically this is how it went...

heard rumors that carl was back in town.
they were true
SO he picked me from from dads house.
we got dawn.
went to starbucks.
tried to get into a longeray(?) store.
then went to the beach.
dawn and i did some serious demolishing of sand castles which was oddly satisfying.
and then we sat on the lifeguard things wishing we had weed.
it was such a beautiful day and the sand was cold... so my feet got numb.

everything was lovely.

and then carl took us home. and some more exitement struck.

somehow we had locked a raccoon in our back porch. and they're dangerous. so my uncle and the raccoon had a war that involved chairs being knocked over and mase. and the raccoon was a trouper. it finally gave up and hauled ass out the screen door. now our porch smells like tear gas and when you walk out there your eyes kinda water.

but yeah.

zack comes up in two weeks.
im going crazy.
<3

x3collide @ 2005-11-29T19:07:00

2005-11-30T00:15:44Z

soo.

today it was raining.

no...

today it was pouring.

and I decided to wear a sheer WHITE top today?
jesus christ.

i was a wet mess,
and for about thirty minutes i was the crankiest i've been in awhile. and people suffered the reprocussions.

*sorry emilio for hitting you numerous times.
**and for getting really REALLY angry when you shot me with the staple gun.
i was lost for words.
that never happens.

but things got considerably better when i stripped put on a dry sweater ((courtesy of kelci edlinger)) and went to acting aka listened to my ipod and plaid solitaire while people did their monologues.

OOOO! this is gross...
so. i was wearing my rainbows today. and they tend to .. hold dirt like from your feet and stuff. therefor when you get them wet .. they get muddy. and so my feet were reallly dirty but i didn't really think much of it until i got home and showered and realized not only were my feet muddy.. they were .. STAINED. so.. i look like a black person on the bottom of my feet?? its really discusting i scrubbed them for a good fifteen minutes.

mmlife.

x3collide @ 2005-11-28T18:44:00

2005-11-28T23:46:41Z

If it makes you less sad, I will die by your hand.
I hope you find out what you want. I already know what I am.
And if it makes you less sad, we'll start talking again.
And you can tell me how vile I already know that I am.

I'll grow old and start acting my age.
I'll be a brand new day in a life that you hate.
A crown of gold. A heart that's harder than stone.
And it hurts a whole lot, but it's missed when it's gone.

Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not.
I'm glad that you can forgive. I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget.

If it makes you less sad, I'll move out of the state.
You can keep to yourself. I'll keep out of your way.
And if it makes you less sad, I'll take your pictures all down.
Every picture you paint, I will paint myself out.

It's cold as a tomb, and it's dark in your room,
when I sneak to your bed to pour salt in your wounds.
So call it quits or get a grip. Say you wanted a solution.
You just wanted to be missed.

Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not.
I'm glad that you can forgive.
I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget...

You are calm and reposed.
Let your beauty unfold.
Pale white, like the skin stretched over your bones.
Spring keeps you ever close.

You are second hand smoke.
You are so fragile and thin.
Standing trial for your sins.
Holding onto yourself the best you can.
You are the smell before rain.
You are the blood in my veins.

Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not.
I'm glad that you can forgive. I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget.

x3collide @ 2005-11-27T19:55:00

2005-11-28T01:03:13Z

last night was a blasssst..

i love you all..

and dressing bill and emilio up in paiges shirts and taking them to applebees to show them off.

:]

sweet times with
dawn<3
paige<3
AKERNZZ<3
emilio<3
billiam<3
robb<3
anthony??

lol.

(excuse the blurriness..these came from paiges camera)

soooooo... the boys got naked.

and then we dressed them up

bill doesn't deserve srq.

vogue.

o.. its his.

bffl. s;dhgsodhg !!

Happy Thanksgiving!!

2005-11-24T23:51:59Z

horay for being thankful.

and for brownies.

<33

carl's in town so it was a good night last night ;) we smoked and played board games and then went to a chinese buffet. which was interesting. and i ate a lot of sushi.

we had thanksgiving at my dads for a change and it was a lot less uptight.. i managed to drink about 3 glasses of wine which ended up with me being a little drunk in front of my family.. i believe i played it off well though. =]

everyone be safe over break.
LOVE TO ALL.

x3collide @ 2005-11-22T22:01:00

2005-11-23T03:02:44Z

<33

i really do pee a lot.

x3collide @ 2005-11-20T18:11:00

2005-11-20T23:17:09Z

amazing weekend in ft. myers.

the bus ride was a lot quicker than i had imagined. and the weekend went by way faster than i wanted. :(

so now im in a funky mood because i miss you. insanly much.
but seeing you and then leaving you was better then not seeing you at all.

<3

i feel bad about being a bitch to generally everyone on the way back. including a guy who just asked me where i had come from. i gave him a death glare and walked away.. he told me to fuck off. &&& i smell bad. shower time.

new icon

2005-11-19T05:00:42Z

so.

i just saw march of the penguins...
and basically they are amazing. and it made me feel lazy.

i cried everytime a baby died.. :(

so tomorrow=
gettin up at 8..
leaving at 8 30 to go to the greyhound station.
getting on a bus with creepy people for a good 2 hours.
seeing zack
being happy with him
then sleepover

and then back on a greyhound bus on sunday to come home.. :(((
but thats not til 3 ish the next day.

soooooo i got a day and then some in ft. myers.
awesome.

x3collide @ 2005-11-17T06:43:00

2005-11-17T11:52:44Z

this week has been realllly good. :)

i hung out with justin on tuesday .. and it felt good to establish a friendship again. i hope there's still no hard feelings.

so im at my dads until thanksgiving break.. and its honestly taking a lot out of me. considering he's pissing me off about 85% of the time.. but the other 15 hes a really amazing person and a good dad. i just wish he wasn't such a dick most of the time. w/e im learning to deal with it and he is paying my greyhound ticket to FT. MYERS to see ZACK. :))))) goooooooood fucking deal.

last night i went to mobilized youth for the first time.. the meeting was kind of disorganized but liz brought beer..and i managed to get through almost an entire pack of cigarettes by the time the night was over.

O I GOT MY FRIST B IN ARDNT'S CLASS..fucking amazing. my mom was really happy and now my grade is a c..weighted.. b. so..that definently made it easier to sleep at night.

love.

x3collide @ 2005-11-13T08:44:00

2005-11-13T13:51:46Z

this has officially been the LAMEST 3 day weekend of my life.

i have done absolutly nothing.

know where i am now?
at church.
in my grandpa's office.
because i am that lame.

i've been fueled on fake adrenaline all weekend and i've never cleaned so much in my life.

but the house looks amazing and spotless.

jeanettes sweet 16 was last night.
good seeing everybody
and now she has a pair of sweet shades. 8)
&&& a metallic belt.
HAPPY BIRHTDAY. <3

Last night i was up half the night waiting for ERIN who NEVER CAME. you suck.
thank you for calling?!?!?!? or even ATTEMPTING to get ahold of me. you piss me off. ;alsdf;lakjsdlfja;lsdjf.

but i did manage to take a bath and talk on the phone for a good half hour.. even with shitty reception.

how was the show everyone??

no one ever comments anymore..

2005-11-12T02:36:18Z

just hung out with jess, marisa, and ben.
did absolutly nothing.

fridays off are overrated.

seeing britt last night was good. seeing as we haven't had a sleepover where it was just us too. and it was really lax and sweet. we watched a movie, ate, ice cream, and cuddled. thats all it really needed to be.

alex- we should probably go to ft. myers with dawn pretty soon. i miss people terribly. :( get back to me on that.<3

i need to get good and drunk.. or stoned. either one.
anyone wanna party?

x3collide @ 2005-11-09T17:51:00

2005-11-09T22:53:06Z

BOYFRIEND?!?!?!

sean=goddess

kelsey :)

lainie kates. kelsey edlinger.

yeah yeah.. we're d8ing.

,,,,,

laguna beach??

jeremy's face > yours

x3collide @ 2005-11-07T21:44:00

2005-11-08T02:50:13Z

my spacebar doesnt work unless i press it really firmly
which i will NOT take the time to do for the rest of this entry.

rallywasprettymuchamazing
dawnandigotcloser...ididn'thinkthatwasposssible

and im sorry erin had to miss sweet makeout sessions on the bus
btwdawn..ihaven'tgottenmy2.50yet.:)

grandmasbirthdaydinnerwastoday.
thatwasnice.
outbackgaveusafreesundae.
&&&mylifewascomplete.

<3

x3collide @ 2005-10-27T22:58:00

2005-10-28T02:59:34Z

basically

its 11 oclock at night
i am up with a sickness
and i cant deal with two drunk adults quoting Austin Powers, and breaking thermometers.

i am dizzy and all i can say is that i hope i will be better for this weekend

:/

x3collide @ 2005-10-25T21:50:00

2005-10-26T01:55:57Z

hurricane day was niiiiice.
a perfect day off from school.<33
dawn calls at around 12 30 and is all like "erica!! lets hang out! let go to a park or something " so im like... mkkk. so we ended up packing a picnic and going to colonial oaks park with the boyfriends and eating it on a blanket watching little kids run/swim after their balls ect.
then the dumases went to work and we stayed at home eating fritos and watching there's something about mary. :)))

i cant wait till next weekend
howloscream with amazing people???
yes.
camping for joey's b-day and getting wasted???
yes.

im a happy kid with a messy room.
but its okay.

because i <3 justin.
xoxoxoxo. <333

x3collide @ 2005-10-23T09:04:00

2005-10-23T16:07:55Z

last night =
dunkin donuts with justin and erin
spilling hot coffee on erins thighs :(
watching the sunset from the marina
dinner with my dad and erin
boston lettuce<3
hurricane lists
sitting in the neighbors yard listening to the ipod
dock at midnight
fun times with erin on my roof

<333333333

x3collide @ 2005-10-22T11:49:00

2005-10-22T15:53:05Z

soooooooooo last night...
hmm

got picked up by justin, taylor, and joey at around 6, then went to see my drama kids at applebees I LOVE YOUU ALL. yay. then i ate some nachos and we all went back to justin's with dawn and then met up with a bunch of cool people and went to a kegger in lake sarasota. too bad i had to leave at 10 30. (just enough time to get down two bears and some captain morgans) but the boyfriend was nice enough to take me home and listen to my drunk babbling all the way back to my dads house. the only thing i remember is that i kept giggling and telling him how drunk i was.

ah life.

<33

x3collide @ 2005-10-20T21:53:00

2005-10-21T01:59:25Z

mmm today was niiiice.

perks...

-seeing justin.
-seeing dawn
-slurpee date with justin and dawn
-seeing dawn run across her house to answer the phone in her underwear as justin and i waited at the door. (she didn't know we were there)
-subwayyy
-an old man with boobs who smelled bad in line in front of us
-scaring the couple behind us because we were tlaking about getting drunk and kegs.
-eating subway in danny's garage while chad, and paul, and danny played sweet music
-seeing cooper and paul and danny fight with boxing gloves??
-DOING LAUNDRY : ]

goodnight all

*note- this man had an acutal RACK
it wasn't just like.. man boobs it was like... im a hermy.

x3collide @ 2005-10-18T21:24:00

2005-10-19T01:30:17Z

STORY TIME

so.. today my mom was like.

"erica, let's have a mom/daughter night"
and i was like mk.

so we went to see just like heaven...and we were the ONLY people in the theater. it was amazing. and my mom ate a hot dog and i ate a small popcorn (with white chedder) and a large diet coke...those of you who know me...its how i roll. but...they were larges and when you get larges .. you get free refills...SO i ended up drinking 2 large diet cokes... and then i didn't want to miss the end so i held the urine in for a good 15 minutes..and it was bad, like painful bladder in gonna die if i dont let it the fuck out bad. so when i FINALLY got to pee...(no exaggeration) i peed for a good minute...maybe a minute and a half. and it was totally unexpected. so i just kinda sat there giggling because it was funny. and peeing.. giggling and peeing. and all i could think about was that i hope no one is in the bathroom because i sound realllly gay right now.

end of story.

anyways. this week has been amazing. i had a fun day on sunday with justin and took LOTS of pics but sadly erins camera broke so i have to wait ... but when we get them i promise A HUGE picture post..it'll be good.

<33

x3collide @ 2005-10-16T13:17:00

2005-10-16T17:21:27Z

homecoming was a blasssssst, i loved seeing everyone again :)) <33

erin/ashley/aleigh/britt/mee

ash/britt

ashley/erin

ash/me

x3collide @ 2005-10-14T19:19:00

2005-10-14T23:23:34Z

yesterday was fun

thursday after school justin took me shopping to get a homecoming dress but my mom didn't like it so i got a new one. its cute, and i have amazing shoes and earings. (i'll post pics later)
..thennnn got drunk with justin, dawn , chad, and erin on thursday night in the park.
it was nice, because its been way too long.

funnn sleepover, and at one point i was in my underwear, bra, and silver sparkle pumps dancing to ludacris around dawns room. good times good times. :))

got my hair redyed and hilighted today so its wayy blonder, and im really exited for homecoming tomorrowww reunions are always fun
<33

x3collide @ 2005-10-12T06:26:00

2005-10-12T10:32:48Z

wow.
i haven't woken up feeling this shitty in awhile.
i dont know why because i actually had energy this morning and my cat cuddled with me for awhile sometime around the wee hours of the morning. but i still feel aweful.

justin came over last night but i wasn't feeling too well and i hope i wasn't being a bitch. but i made him watch sex and the city and gilmore girls. he was a trouper.

the rest of my trip was nice, but i literally was in tears waiting for luggage because i thought i was going to miss my greenroom. luckily i only had to change my shirt for the first skit and i was just barely ontime, although i dont think ms. artim was very happy. : /
i already miss carol and everyone else and i think that we're gonna fly her down to srq sometime next year-ish, so we'll have to take her to some sweet parties because she's cute. and i have to keep her away from the bad boys here. :)

dress shopping tomorrow with justin for homecoming. i seriously cant wait to get everyone back together again..it'll be like.. brms/lrhs reunion. and hopefully i will have a red dress that would make it even better.

school time.
<33

x3collide @ 2005-10-08T13:19:00

2005-10-08T17:36:38Z

im in oklahoma in the lodge lobby where i get wireless...so thats how im online.
:)

it has been amazing these past couple days. The quartz mountains are beautiful and we're staying in a lake resort overlooking the mountains. it really is amazing to get out of sarasota for awhile and be in the wilderness.
i had a realllly good audition on wednesday for mattress. Mr. keys did my call-back right after the dance audition was over and had me read for larkin and the queen. I'll be calling people on monday to see how everyone did. <3
My family is amazing and big, and my grandpa is adorable. He's the livliest 80 yr. old i've ever seen, and its hard to keep from tearing up when i think about how he might not be here for that much longer. For his birthday we sang him songs and made him an album with picutres of him and my grandma who died from cancer a bout 13 yrs. ago and a page for all of his kids and grandkids. i spent about an hour looking at all the pictures and crying. he was in the peace corp for most of his life and traveling around the world educating people about birth control and such. Its hard to think about being that old and losing everyone along the way. ugh, this is why i have a love-hate relashionship with fmaily reunions..
there is my cousin isaac here to lighten the mood tho. He's a little adopted boy from cambodia and he is definently the cutest reynolds here, and the most talented..hes only 8 years old and has perfect pitch and a vibrato if he's on broadway in 5 years i wouldn't be surprised,
and he makes me do his hair into a mohawk every morning.
i've been getting in hour study sessions with my cousin rachel who's in college..we're learning the same thing in science and are both having trouble with it so its good to have each other to help explain things and im surprising myself with how much i know, i CANT fail this midterm...i dont know what the hell im gonna do.

okay. well.

i miss everyone and the first thing im gonna do when i get back is see justin and dawn. and we're drinking next weekend because its been too long.

im gonna post pictures of the family later when i get them emailed to me.

<3<3